Recovery entry #2- Reaching out for support

So the other day I was walking with a friend (we were at some kind of mindset event) and I openly talked about my struggles with eating disorder stuff. And she talked about her anxiety. And you know what I discovered? That it feels so huge in my head, but when I try to explain how it feels, it comes out so simply. I feel like I just have the same thoughts on loop. So in a way it helped.

I also joined an online support group ran by the Butterfly Foundation, and it was a little helpful to hear from others going through the same stuff I go through.

But at the same time, I don't feel like it has helped. I feel like I read all the stuff, or talk all the right things, but when it comes to putting it into action I get tripped up.

I'm not sure if that is;

a.) because I don't believe in myself,

b.) because I don't know what to do, or

c.) because it brings up too much anxiety

So what I am trying to work on lately is taking small actionable steps to prove to myself that I can achieve a goal.

I read a blog post from Gabby Bernstein this morning, and it really rang a bell in my mind.

"take action from a place of inspiration, not control and manipulation"

It really reminded me that to be successful in anything that I do, I must get to the reasoning of WHY I want to succeed/change. To find motivation from a place of inspiration.

So I guess, my inspiration is that I want to be more at ease with my mind and I want to better show up in this world. I want to be a shining warm light in other people's lives. I want to feel confident in my own body. I want to learn as much as I can and help as many people as I can.

Some small steps that are helping me recently are:

- yoga (Yoga with Adrienne on Youtube is an absolute angel that helps me every day)

- having a shower before I turn to food (I am really just craving warmth, vulnerability, comfort and relaxation)

- journalling

- reaching out to others for support

So I just want to leave with this...

We are only as limited as we believe ourselves to be

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