The uncomfortableness of the comfort zone

I always thought I liked being hidden away in my comfort zone. No-one to judge me, no-one to talk to me, no-one to make me do something I don't want to do.

But, this "comfort" zone is becoming a hated space for me. My comfort zone of not going out, not exploring what the world has to offer. Not travelling. Not talking to different people. Not joining random groups. Not visiting friends. Not sharing my passion.

So what is stopping me? Am I just selfish? Am I just a big sook?

The more I think about it, my comfort zone has become a dredded area. I have been doing the exact same thing for the past few months. The same things that are keeping me stuck in a cycle of body hate, self-hate, self-sabotage, uncomfort. And every night I think about how I didn't enjoy it, and how I am going to change. I always seem to have hope that tomorrow will be a better day. But sure enough, tomorrow comes around and I don't change a thing. My day continues to go the same as the one before.

So how do we get out of a rut?

Firstly, we need a plan...

Secondly, we need to work out what it is about what we are currently doing that we enjoy enough to hold onto

Then, we need to jump and make the change.

It's easier said then done...

I am going to show my example:

1. A plan- I am going to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner and exercise outside of my room daily. I am going to catch up with a friend every day. And I am going to meditate and self-reflect at least once a day. I am going to focus on doing only one thing at a time. No more listening to videos or podcasts while doing something else. Become conscious!

2. What is keeping me stuck? What is keeping me from skipping breakfast and sometimes lunch. What is keeping me overeating at night and feeling out of control?- Self-sabotage? Self-hate? Stress? Overwhelm? Boredom? Hunger? All of the above? I almost think it might be a control mechanism. The only way I can feel in control is when I am (ironically) out of control with food. I overeat due to feeling like it is the only thing in life I seem to do well. That is such a bullshit reason, but it might be all it is. So how do we shift that mentality? Do simple things everyday that make us feel accomplished. That give us a sense of power and gratitude.

3. Get out and just do it. Don't worry about what might go wrong... god knows, it is better to try and fail then stay stuck in the same old pattern.

As much as I say all of the above, I already know this. And if you are going through the same things, you are probably the same. You can overanalyse absolutely everything and still see no change. So what do you need to do?

Just fucking make a simple change! Do something small in every moment and be fucking proud of yourself for it.

Wow. Talking helps too. Writing/journalling is a big relief. Deep breathing too.

The simple things am I right?

xx

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